my diet plan..

sekarang nih saya sedang berdiet..dah sebulan saya tak makan nasi, minum manis2, lemak-lemak ni sy kurangkan. sekarang ni saya memang kawal makan dan exercise. kalo saya xde klas power gen, saya akan jogging kat tasik 3 round. pastu buat push up, sit up..mcm2 la.. pastu saya makan biskut, buah, sayur. minum milo tanpa gula, susu skim rendah lemak, air suam banyak2.. saya tak minum ais.. skarg pun dah jarang makan roti. fast food---jangan harap.

lepas beberapa ketika, diet+exercise ada pengurangan pada ukuran badan saya. tapi saya belum timbang lagi.. nantilah.. tak kisah lah berapa.. asalkan impian saya tercapai.. saya impikan

34-24-34.. or at least waist-25..hahaha.. realistic ke impian saya nih.. bole kut.. skrg nih my stat---eh..mana bole bagitau..cuma amat berpuas hati la hampir 25 dah..hahahha...hahaa..saya mesti diet sebab saya ni gemuk(saya rasa). sidia tak suka saya diet sbb kata tak elok kalo kurus.tapi betul kut, nanti sya nampak kurus sgt.. dia kata saya dah ok mcm ni.. ye ke...??? alah, sebenarnya bukan saya tak tau..saja nak jek ni.. wuteva pun..i am fat.. enuff said!!

lama nya tak update

hai.. nampaknya mcm dah lama tak update.. maaf. ada sedikit malas nak update. masa dirumah, after raya tak boleh online sebab line telefon rosak. masa raya pulak saya langsung tak usik pc sebab sibuk berjalan..

sekarang ni dah mula sem baru. banyak kerja baru.sem ni saya ambik subjek control system yang tough, management yang bosan, CAM dan power gen. and project. skrg ni dah mula kena work hard sebab saya sambung buat project 2. banyak kerje nya tuh.. tapi project 1 saya masih lagi BS. saya tak tau mengapa sebab saya sudah lama menghantarnya. Bila jumpa supervisor dia kata nanti dulu. Hmm.. sekarang ni nak buat mould guna CNC machine. tapi masalah nye cutting tools takde..nak beli mahal sampai sama harga dengan harga mesin. Tapi supervisor saya tak mahu saya tempah pada mould maker sebab nak saya buat sendiri. Saya tak kisah pun kalo nak buat sendiri..asalkan tools suma ada. project yang saya ambik ni agak susah untuk buat..tensi!!! btw, result saya sem lepas hanya ok saje.. tapi saya kurang berpuas hati untuk Numec. yang lain, syukur sangat. berbaloi dengan saya yang tak berapa belajar ni.. betul..saya main2 waktu belajar.. lebih banyak bersantai, tgk tv (i'm a tv freak), dan tido2... saya tak rajin untuk buat soalan2 atau buat pass years question. (kalo buat bole dapat 3.5 ke??). saya cuma buat example dalam text book. itupun sekali. lepas tu tengok2 saja. satu saja yang saya tak suka, study last minute. saya tak boleh study last minute nanti kepala serabut dan tak cukup tido. kalo exam saya mesti mendapat tido sebyak lebih 6 jam. lagi satu saya tak suka paksa diri untuk study. kalau dah mengantuk saya akan pergi tido walau pun byk lagi yang tal abis belaja..

anda minat bola? saya minat bola dan menonton perlawanan bola. i do watch world cup, euro cup, tiger cup and malaysian cup.. but i don't watch EPL..boring.. kalau tengok bola mesti sampai lupa nak buat keje especially yang melibat kan malaysian teams.. saya menyokong pasukan tanahair sendiri walaupun ramai yang kondem mereka. saya sanggup untuk tidak keluar bersama sidia semata-mata untuk menonton bola. seperti semasa final piala malaysia perlis lwn kedah, saya tidak mahu keluar pada malam sabtu itu dan memberi pelbagai alasan supaya saya dapat menontonnya. sidia seperti mensyaki sesuatu kerana selama ini, saya mesti bersetuju. saya tanya pada dia "awak tak tegok bola??" "takpelah, bukan team yang saya sokong.. awak pun tak sokong kan..?? kita kan penyokong selangor??" saya tak tau nak kata apa lagi.. akhirnya keluar juaga tapi mata saya terarah pada tv semasa kami makan di BERAGAS ( satu tempat makan di damansara). bercakap tentang selangor, dah lama tak tengok selangor masuk final.. seluruh keluarga saya dari nenek moyang adalah dari selangor, Saya anak jati selangor yang mempunayi darah jawa. semua saudara mara saya pun tinggal berdekatan kl-selayang-kuang-klang.

hmm. sekarang ni saya sedang berdiet. sya nak turunkan berat badan.. harap-harapnya boleh. sekarang ni berat saya adalah 55 kg dengan ketinggian 164 cm.. sebenarnya sudah ideal tapi saya mahu memperbaiki sesetengah bahagian yang kureng like those thighs.. i don't have problem with tummy.. (i have flat tummy u know..hehehe..) but intended to get a smaller waist.. haa.. ini lah kerje orang perempuan macam saya..

Al-Kisah Nasi Ayam Berempah

Saya sudah lama tidak menulis karangan bahasa melayu. jadi hari ini saya hendak menulisnya..

Tadi saya pergi ke Pasar Ramadhan. Saya beli Nasi goreng ayam rempah..in Fact, kami bertiga ("The Charmed One"..hehehe) beli .. jadi ada tiga bungkus nasi ayam semuanya. Sebenarnya, nasi ayam itu telah kami aim lama dah sejak minggu lepas. Tetapi kami tidak dapat membelinya kerana ia sudah kehabisan..jadi kami pergi pada hari ini untuk mencapai tujuan yang terkandas itu. kami pusing tapak pasar malam itu sebanyak 3 kali untuk memilih juadah berbuka.. yatie telah membeli sebiji kebab dari penjual kebab taman melawati dan air gula merah.(sepatutnya air mata kucing..tapi takde mata kucing langsung). leen telah membeli yong tau fu dan air soya. saya tak tau membeli apa lagi sebab saya sakit tekak, jadi tak dapat membeli air sejuk. jadi saya telah membeli coklat di 7eleven yang berdekatan.

Kami pun pulang ke rumah selepas itu pada pukul 7.40 petang.Kami baru tersedar bahawa kami telah terlepas cerita mengenai lelaki yang curang (Andai itu takdirnya..di tv3). Kami bergegas pulang kerumah.. akhirnya sempat untuk menonton cerita itu di penghujungnya sahaja. Selepas itu saya pun makan nasi ayam itu. kemudian baru tersedar yang saya belum sembahyang maghrib. Saya berhenti makan dan pergi sembahynag sebab takut terlepas waktu kerana waktu Isyak sekarang masuk cepat. selepas itu saya pun sambung memakan nya.. Pada pendapat saya nasi ayam itu tidak sedap.bukan saya saja yang berkata begitu. kawan saya pun berkata begitu juga.. Kami merasa kecewa kerana nasi ayam yang kami 'aim' kan sejak minggu lepas umpama indah khabar dari rupa.. kami betul2 berasa kecewa. di kemudian hari, saya tidak mahu membeli nasi ayam itu lagi.. Saya betul2 "judge a book by it's cover".. Saya teringat kan nasi lemak kukus yang saya beli minggu lepas, ayamnya nampak hangus lagi hitam. tetapi setelah merasanya, rempahnya sangat terasa dan itulah ayam rempah sejati yang dicari-cari. Tidak seperti ayam yang saya beli pada hari ini yang nampak garing,berperisa dari luar tetapi berasa tawar didalam.

Kesimpulan dari cerita ini, kita janganlah menilai sesuatu itu dari luarannya.kerana kita takkan tahu sehingga kita merasanya.

P/S--Saya meminta maaf diatas kesalahan tatabahasa saya.

Man. Can they be trusted??

There are times when i felt sooo.. unsecure about my life. My Love life actually.. i'm scared of thinking about "tak ade jodoh". bile difikirkan, adalah satu pembaziran masa yang amat sangat jika ia nya putus ditengah jalan.. can u imagine, been together for a couple of years and ended up being separated??? i know that's a takdir. i start to think about "me and him" over and over and over again. i don't hav a prob with him rite now. He's a great guy, but when i imagined my future life with him, i feel so scared, so unsecure...

Honestly,i really takut with guys rite now.. i heard many stories of them berlaku curang and watching drama in tv(watch andai itu takdirnya) and still about suami berlaku curang. and summore, recently someone i really2 know also kawin lain.. and he is only about 30++. i really don't understand men.. ape sebenarnye yang dicari.. is it love or lust..?? when people said "lelaki bile dah ada duit lebih sikit, mulalah nak cari lain..." for me,it's probably correct, That someone i know is soooo.. like this.. he once was unemployed, and at that time, his so-loyal-wife with RM800 salary who supported the family..(all 5, including 3 kids). A year later, he got this vast job and suddenly he was "all brand new man". kenal that indonesian girl at some kedai and finally, get married. his wife didn't even know bout that.. reason for him to cari lain was his wife tak nak layan at nite because of penat keje.. man, tak de belas kasihan langsung.. dulu masa susah, si isteri punye sabar. bile dah senang, sang suami pulak buat tak endah... Another one is still about a man(and i know him so much..), get married with this gurl a few month ago and yet, still having an affair with other girl.. what the heck??

suma lelaki sama ke?? i think they are the same.. they might be different from the outside, but their kegatalan are at the same level..(am i rite???)

I've been disscuss this topic with my man, and all that he said is, "insyaAllah wak, saya tak macam tu.." but hey, that doen't make me feel secure.. sekarang bole la cakap.. (he gonna mad at me if he read this.. neway, he won't read this..heehe.. kalo tak takut gak!!)

tak tau la.. kenape aku boleh fikir macam ni.. mungkin terlampau fikir kot.. i am scared to get married. i am really2 scared. actually i am scared if i lose him someday to another woman.. kalo belum kawin takpe..tapi kalo dah ada children, mcm mana?? what am i gonna say if they ask"ma, papa mane?? " (oh, i got a lil' carried away..). everybody wants a perfect life.. who doesn't anyway??

I am thinking of getting married in four years time.. (if my jodoh with him).. will i facing these kind of problem some day?? will he understand my situation? my career? my life.. since we are from different line.. i mean really2 different!! my future masa kerja is so lari with his time..his work requires the whole day( if he could..). can we make a good husband and wife?? can i stand with his busy-ness and he understand mine?? I asked him and he said this, "kita takkan tau kalau kite tak cuba, kita belum pernah mengalaminya..". yeah, we would never know until we try..

Jika ini hakikatnya,

Aku serahkan jiwa dan ragaku,

Menanti muara sengsara,

Jika ini ketentuannya.

Jika ini hakikatnya,

Aku serahkan jiwa dan raga,

Jika ini ketentuannya,

Kaukan jadi milikku jua..

(yes, it's the OST of PGL)

What's Your number?

Hey guys, check out your number.. it's quite fun yet sooo.. true!!!

Anyway, I am the Lucky no. ONE!!

If you were born on the 1st,10th,19th,28th of any month you are no 1.

If you were born on the 2nd,11th,20th,29th of any month then you are no 2.

If you were born on the 3rd,12th,21st,30th of any month then you are no 3.

If you were born on the 4th,13th,22nd,31st of any month then you are no 4.

If you were born on the 5th,14th,23rd of anymonth then you are no 5.

If you were born on the 6th,15th,24th of anymonth then you are no 6.

If you were born on the 7th,16th,25th of anymonth then you are no 7.

If you were born on the 8th,17th,26th of anymonth then you are no 8.

If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of anymonth then you are no 9

Number 1

You are smart, frank, funny, stubborn,hardworking, honest, jealous on competing basis,kind hearted, friendly, and authoritative.Famous Person always want to be and regarded as first on position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, selfconfident people! You are most likely to fall inlove in the younger age, but will get marriedwhen you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views and you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but youwill have a good profession in the future. Ifyou are guy, you will be very popular thateverybody will have mental attraction andrespect you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because youare positive and talented in numerous issues!But make sure in your life, you will always havesome people who will work hard to support.Because of your smart behavior, some people will hate you too. Your family life is very cool; youwill have a very nice partner & wonderfulchildren. You are Pioneer, Independent &Original.Your best match is 4, 6, 8Your good match is 3, 5,7.

Number 2

No matter what, every one will love you because your ruler is the Moon and every one loves theMoon,huh!! Well, you are a person who daydreams a lot. You have very low-self confidence; youneed back up for every move in your life. Youare very much unpredictable means you do change according to time and circumstances. Selfish and have a very strong sense of musical, artistictalent, and verbal communication. Your attitudesare like the Moon comes to Gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the mankind and peace. I mean in the community and your own home. If you really have a deep thought about your own, believe in God, you can feel the difference, which will make you stronger! Mostof the time your words are a kind of would behappening. True! You can predict the situation.You will become poets, writers, or any artisticbusiness people! You are not strong in love, soyou will be there and here till you get marry.If you are a girl, you will be a responsiblewoman in the whole family. If you are a man, you will involve in fights and arguments in thefamily or vice-versa. You are gentle, intuitivewith a broad vision, a power behind the scenes,well balanced people!!!Your best match is 2, 5, and 9 no other peoplecan put up with you!!!

Number 3

You are a person of hardhearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in yourlife. You always tend to have lots of problemswithin your family in the early stages but youwill put up with everything. You have strongword power, pretty happy face, so wherever you go, you always have got what you wanted!!! Andfrom the birth you always wanted to work hard inorder to achieve something. You will not getanything without hard work! When you reach aMan/Woman age, you want other younger listen to you because you want younger people to respect older people. You do set so many examples toothers. Generally you?re not a cool person. It'snot easy dealing with you! But once you likesomeone's attitude, then here you go. It will bea lasting friendship. You always have respectfrom others. Your life seems to have lots ofworries and problems but they won't be long. You will always have brilliant kids!!! You lovemoney a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying. If you are a guy, you will belooking after your family and helping friends,and will spend a life time just being generousand (except 21st born Men) you will be such anexample of how to be in the culture & Life!!! Ifyou are girl, then it's your good character andhardworking attitude you always follow. You area Freedom Lover, Creative Ambition focused who brings Beauty, Hope & Joy to this world!!!Your best match are 6, 9. Good match are 1, 3,5.

Number 4

You are very stubborn and very hard working. You have rough word power, which might put lots ofpeople away from you. You may cause nuisance to others if you are a man. You often understandothers well and their problems. If you are agirl you are very good with studies and arts. Ifyou are guy you spend most of the time aftergirl friends. You will have fun life with mates& girls. Your friends will spend your time &money and get away with their life and you willbecome empty handed and don't know what to do,so be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!! Your good will is you are always there to help familyand friends. You always fall in love in youngerage as well. You need to be careful of peoplewho will take advantage of your kind heart andbeware of your relations too. You are practical,patient, persistent, a bit old-fashioned.You best matches are 1, 8. Good matches are 5,6, 7.

Number 5

You are very popular within the community. Youcan get things done by just chatting to evenenemies! You have a pretty good business mind.You are someone who acts on impulse. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc. Very popular withsense of humor, you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help and you arethe one actually get money on credit and helpyour friends! You will have more than 1relationship, but when you get settle down youwill be a bit selfish. Anyway, because yourother half will have a pretty good amount ofcontrol in you. Be careful you tend to go forother relationships/contacts even you aremarried at times because of your popularity. You are someone who gets along with anyone because the number 5 is the middle number. You likechanges and freedom. You are an Explorer withMagic on your face. You learn your life throughexperience and it's your Best Teacher!!!Your best matches are 1, 2, 9. Good matches are 6, 8.

Number 6

You are born to enjoy. You don't care aboutothers; you always want to enjoy your lifetime.You are a person. You will be very good ineither education or in business management! You are talented, kind (but only with people who youthink are nice), beautiful girls and guys.Popular and more than lucky with anything intheir Lives. All the goodness does comes to you. The mind and body is just made perfect. If youare a number 6 man, you will experience looksfrom most girls and will involve in more thanfew relationships until you get marry!!! If youare girl, most of them will get marry/engageearly. You are caring towards your family andfriends. You are a person of Compassion, Comfort & Fairness, Good judgment, and after all you can heal this world to make peace forever becauseyou have great power of caring.Your best matches are 1, 6, 9. Good matches are 4, 5.

Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there.You are realistic, confident, happy, a talentedindividual in your Education, Music, Arts,Singing, and most importantly Acting. You havereal problems with bad temper!! If you are girl,you are popular with the subjects listed above,you give up things for your parents, I mean youvalue your family status a lot. You will be inthe top rank when you reach a certain age! Ifyou are a guy, you are popular with Girls. Youare a very talented too! Most of the number 7sfaces lots of problems with their marriage life.Only a very few are happy!! It's probably theLord give you all sort of humans talents and youare about to suffer in family life, so you needto get ready looking for a partner rather thanwaiting. If you don't, then you might end-upsingle!!! You are wonderful, Friendly, Artistic,Happy person. You are born to contribute lot tothis world!!!Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1, 4.

Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's noone out there will understand you. You are verygood at pointing your finger at some thing!!!You are more likely to suffer from the early agepoverty.If your times are not good you might lose eitherof your parents and end up looking after yourentire family. You often suffer all the way inlife. The problems will not allow you to studyfurther, but you will learn the life in a verypractical way!!! You are the one will fight forjustice and may die in the war too!!! You arenormally very reserved with handful of friendsand most of the time, live life lonely andalways prepared to help. Well, once you getmarry (which is often late) then your bad luckswill go away a bit, then you become safe. Beware of un-expected problems from the terror,government, poisonous animals & accidents. You are someone with discipline, persistence,courage that will take you to the Success! ! Youare a Great part of a team, family and afighter!!!Your Best matches are 1, 4, 8. Good match is 5.

Number 9

Hey, you guys are the un-compatible people inthe world; you are so strong, physically andmentally. You often have big-aims. You will workhard and hard to get there, normally you sufferin the early age from family's problems andgenerally you will have fighting life, but whenyou achieve what you have done, it's always abig-task!! You are so much respected in thecommunity. You are a person who can make achallenge and successfully finish the matteroff. You are very naughty in your younger age,often beaten up by your parents, and involve infights and you seemed to have lots of injuriesin your lifetime, but when you grow, you become calm and macho type!!! Tell you what; Love isnot an easy matter for you. You are good inengineering or banking jobs because peoplealways trust you! Your family life is very good,but will have worries over your children. Yourqualities are humanitarian, patient, quickwitted & compassionate, You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally withoutany prejudice! You are totally a Role Model toeverybody in the world for a GreatInspiration!!!Your best matches are 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match is 2.

I HATE THIS!!!!!!

Tiba-tiba, pada pukul 1:47 pagi aku rasa bad mood.i hate it..i really hated it..suddenly i feel like i wanna cry.. benci...benci..nk nagis..nak jerit.. nak nangis.. i really hate it when..

1. Orang yang mungkir janji--kalo selalu (like HIM)
2. Orang yang tak punctual..(like HIM)
3. Orang yang igt dia best tapi sebenarnye tak best pun..
4. Orang yang suka buat bising bile orang lain tido--tak sensitive langsung.
5. Orang yang amik barang aku tanpa kebenaran--pastu tak cakap.
6. Orang yang amik barang aku tanpa kebenaran,pastu tak cakap,pastu sepah2 lagi..--ape nih??

mende mende nih la yang buat aku rasa geram,nak marah,nak nangis, nak jerit,nak maki hamun---end up,simpan dalan hati je.. all in all, i am totally depressed..

how could i forget...

Today, 23 october.. this is the most unforgettable one.. how could i not remember this.. and i won't forget till i die.. 2 years ago, He took my only strength, my only best friend and my whole life away..from that day onwards, i wasn't myself anymore.. suddenly, life become

completely miserable.. i was lost to find my own path.. all these are because of losing the most important person in my life. my 'nobody-could-ever-replace' mum..

at that time, it was only three days after i finished my final exam and i have to extend my holiday just to complete my diploma FYP.. and at that day(tuesday) i just keep asking yatie for the date..many times.. i don't know why i keep asking her the same question "yatie, hari ni berapa haribulan ha..??" maybe that was a sign for me.. not to remember that date--Forever>> at 7.00 pm, i recieved a call from my cousin. she asked me to come to the hospital immediately."kalo boleh, balikla.. mak ko dah teruk ni..". i packed my things up.. and suddenly at around 7.30 pm.. i recieved another call.. this time frm my uncle--when he burst the bad news--- at that time, i felt like tuhan dah cabut nyawa aku separuh..rasa mcm dah tak pijak tanah.. aku dah tak fikir ape dah..project tah kemana..suma nya..yatie terus hantar aku balik Kuang and she also completed our project on her own. luckily we only had to finshed the report.. (yatie, if u read this..thank u so much.. n i won't forget ur kindness. thanks for being very2 understanding..i really2 owed u this..)..

it was very sad to think that, i was the only one in my sibling who couldn't spent the very last time with her coz i'm busy with the project. i can't read her yassin and couldn't mandikan her at that time (i was not able to...) that was things that i really2 regreted..kenapala byk sgt halangan..

lepas hari tu, my fams pun dah lain.. everything seems to be very odd.. very different.. i really2 pity my sis.. dua mgu lagi nk SPM and less than one month to start berpuasa.. our puasa and hari raya will never be great anymore, suma nye dah takde makna.. i wasn't eager to celebrate it.. i don't care whether i hav a new baju or not because for me.. rasa utk sambut raya dah takde kat jiwa aku..hari raya is just like ordinary day for me..nothing special..

since that day, my life is totally changed.. i can't think of kluar mana2 yg aku suka..bile2 yang aku nak sebab aku ada tanggungjawab baru..as a kakak sulung, all the housecore jatuh kat aku.. even if my sister is there.. i have missed sooo..many things in these years..tak bole kluar lama2, pegi suka2, lepak2 or i will keep worrying about home..rumah dah kemas ke, dah masak ke..kain dah angkat ke.. susah kan jadi aisyah ni.. tapi that's the fate.. suma tu dah ditentukan.. and suma tu ada hikmah nye.. such as.. i started to become close with my dad whereby selama ni aku jarang bercakap wif him.. and around these years, i am my dad's bestfriend, my dad's advisor.. i really pity him.. i know he missed my mum so much..if tis is hard for me.., it's even harder for him to lose someone that he want to spent the rest his life with..

i know i couldn't turn back the time, i know i couln't change the fate.. but one thing for sure, i know she's somewhere up there..watching us and see that she was left behind-- i absolutely couldn't accept that i've lost my mum forever----until now.. Al-Fatihah for my late mum..

so..stupid

i really hate today.. i screwed up my presentation due to my supervisor suggestion.. i HATE him.. i really feel bad rite now because i know i can do better.. apa yang buat aku marah sgt.. dia kata, ktrg ni jarang jumpa dia, taknak study pasal topic ni further and so on and on and on and on.... rasa malu sgt depan lecturer yg lain.. nk suruh org study pasal bende ni konon.."he is so..rite.".tapi bile tanye dia psl tpic ni, dia pun tak tau nk jawab ape. pastu hari tu suruh buat prediction sendiri, suruh tgk thesis master dia.. bila org predict, at the moment aku ckap prediction. dia kata prediction aku salah.. padahal aku yg buat topic ni dan aku yg study pasal mende ni.. dia dulu buat lain..nk samakan result dia dgn prediction aku.. aku terus cakap "sir, dgr dulu".. it sounds rude tapi sebab dah geram gile ni..bile dah dgr prediction tu, taknak tanye pulak..tu setuju la dgn prediction aku.. dah la presentation ni bagitau last minute.. dulu kata takde, alih2 last week hari selasa baru bagitau.. bayangkan betapa kelam kabut nye..dgn nk buat thesis, exam lagi..my 1 week of tak cukup tido,satu hari tido 2-3 jam saja, tak buat mende lain, tak post blog.. sebab buat mende haram ni.. as a conclusion.. saya menyesal buat topic project ini..